Just Stay Gone

I don't believe it anyway-
Anymore.
You're slipping through my
Hands
And shattering on the floor-

You're pulling me under like
Sand-
And I adore you
When you're here,

But now you're gone-
Fear facing,
Fire racing inside of me;

Enough to say
Just stay-

Gone.

Because then you won't pretend
You want me

Then never stay.

Dear Zach,

I miss you-

And I love you.

Forever.

I'd weave you dreams

If you'd close your eyes and sleep

In peace,

In my arms-

Like there's nothing on your shoulders-

No burden

To bare.

And I drink you up,

When I cannot hold you

Because you're fighting me

And slipping like water

Right through my hands-

And I feel you

And smell you

And drink you,

And you are everywhere

But I don't know you.

And you

Only pretend to.

For you-

I'd draw my sword

And my small self would slay

Fears

If you'd fall into me,

And let me catch you-

And keep you,

And weave your dreams.

Our past is bound

And sold away
For cents that brought
Us victory,
But still on these October days

I miss the outline of your face.

And there was
Emptiness
In the spaces of time
Where your lips were meant to
Envelope mine;

And even as off course
As you were
You linger in passages
Where I stir-

Where some part of my spirit
Longs for yours.

And low-
Sings the buildings
That I know
That hug the streets I used to Roam-

They'll tell you of how I left that Home-
The day I let you go.

And bound between the covers
Are
The vacant sheets
Of fading words

And the melodies
I miss today-

Of what October sold away.